RAGE THOUGHTS

FRIDAY, 30th  OCTOBER,  (33°c BOILING IN AUTUMN!)

Everything is going crazy, It's like we are at the edge about to get insane, life is like very tensed these  days, I think that anyone could kill anybody in any moment.

The school, at home, at the church, the intership thing, the whole thing is like taking me down.




Pray for me I'm dying!

IT WAS BEAUTIFUL

Thursday 22nd October 2015, 06:54 AM

I'm sorry for being lazy, since I didn't have classes on Monday and Tuesday, at least I should have said hi!

The classes were cancel because of the weather, it was so stormy and amazing, I felt great it was actually raining properly, it was so rainy,  and I was like back in those long winter vacations in which everything was so deep, the feelings, the thoughts and the music.

I hope you understand a word I say because as this is so me that I tend to think that I'm the only one who feels this.

Like a year ago I wrote a blog about what a part of my mind is made of, what are my thoughts and that strange sensation that tortures me and at the same time it's the most beautiful thing I can feel and It really gets me, it's so deep so trust me I'd like to find someone who feels this nameless feeling.

Well it is pretty related to rainy days, since when the days are rainy I'm more likely to feel it.

By the way that blog in which I explain that it's in Spanish, I must translate it to English soon.

How do you enjoy rainy days?
Do you feel strange feelings mixed with thoughts, memories, sensations and visions?

DAYS ARE UGLY

As the days passed by I don't know if I becoming a bad guy or a better guy, my head it's so messed up and I don't know what to believe, everything is becoming so surreal, everything is subjective and relative.

I'm busy doing things I don't even care about.

I becoming that zombie, I don't know what to do, I want to rage quit everything.

In my life every aspect is becoming twisted.

PLAYING TRUANT (HACIENDO NOVILLOS/PELLAS)

TUESDAY, 13rd APRIL, 2015 10:02 AM ('BURNING' SUNNY)

Today, I played truant / hookey, yeah I didn't go to college I get up in the morning and said what if I don't go to school and then I found myself playing Smash Bros. At 7:30 in the morning, and quickly I planned to go for my check-pay from the days I worked on that cinema, so I am here in the mall next to the cinema, getting cold.

As it was 9:06 AM I thought it was too early to go to the cinema and I rode the bus till I thought I had consumed some time and then I took another bus to here but I still think is too early and I'm making use of the time I have to write this.

I was tired, exhausted and I didn't want to l go to school. So I'm a little nervous because of the way in which I left the job and now I have to come back, but I'll have money 💰.

Then I have to go and change the pay-check they'll give me and then I"ll go to but some points for Nintendo and maybe a sweater in the greatest mall in town. It's called Forum.

And then I'll get back home, when this be published I'll have already done all that, at least I'm counting on that. Nobody knows anything.

I'm nervous I don't want to go but it's money I'll be secure of myself. I gave a look and it looks close, I don't want to enter, 😖, help please.

Afterward: It was nothing, It was all right and I've got the money and I'll go for some jumpers some day.-

BECOMING KAWAI

I guest some things are happening over these days, I've been subdued to Japanese Animes, well today I decided to stop watching them but they're so freakin' addictive, you whatch one but then you discover another one and then you find yourself watching lots of them.

You know I'm not a freaky nor Otaku but I've learn some good stuff from them, you know things about life.

In some aspects it would be good for yourself to act like an Anime character.

They say way they have to say, what they want, they express their emotions no matter what, they say who they care about and get by the people they don't like. They do the necessary to achieve things.

And the stories are amusing.

I recommend you these, watch one just because.

¤Anohana
¤Charlotte
¤Angel beats
¤Aldnoah Zero
¤Owari No Seraph

DO YOU HATE COLDNESS? A KIND OF CHRONICLE

Whether walking or not you can feel it in your body, the tiring days.

It comes from everywhere, you cannot avoid it's invisible feeling, when moving around by those huge cans, the proximity to people will make you feel mad, they're boiling, I'm boiling.

When walking in the street you can see how everything absorbs the energy that makes you shout from inside, the water that runs down your face is your closest approach to the truly freshness but for sure that water is mostly sticky when it's gone.

Those vapours make you feel tired and angry, your face turns red and you only feel the desperation of that incandescent sensation in your skin and the vapour coming out from it.

Those cloudy days are jokes for those vaporous streets and burning bushes, the clouds covering the sky just hide that burning sensation in the skin but they intensify that suffocating sensation in the nose.

Bushes and grass burning, the streets are pans and cars are moving ovens, the hot air sets fire on peoples faces, no shade can be a relief, darkness is not cold anymore since it receives waves of heat.

Dogs shelter under shades, they can just dig deep to get some freshness, umbrellas are about to burn to ashes.

Home is just a hot jail, the atmosphere is awful, thirst is keeping us constantly moving and drinking.

Waiting, looking forward to see it cry, days go and days come to end, no relief can descent to quite us, days are longer when waiting, spring and summer don't leaves the sun.

Do you hate coldness?