FIGHTING MY HEIGHT

SATURDAY 28 FEBRUARY 2015 09:01

Today I went shopping with my family we went to some places and the last place went was a mall, as you maybe know I don't usually enjoy being in crowded places, so I felt restless, uncomfortable and awkward. by parenthesis I'm a pretty short boy I'm 1,63 centimetres (5'3 ft.)  and maybe I'm exaggerating a bit, so I'm a little complexed, and when I see a lot of people taller than me I feel a little intimidated, inferior and I just want to disappear, that feeling plus how I feel in crowded places was horrible, I wanted to run away.
I know we are all beautiful no matter how we are but I cannot help feeling this.
I think being tall it's better and everybody should be tall and I'd like to grow up a little bit, this is something that really bothers me.

                                                              I think I won't be able to help feeling like this.

THE MYSTERY OF THE DRESS

SATURDAY 28 FEBRUARY 2015 08:35 PM (23° C )

Maybe this is ridiculous but yesterday I was really obsessed about this dress, cause maybe it's a normal ugly dress but there's something interesting behind it.

This picture became very famous on the internet  because some people claim that the colours of the dress are blue and black and some people say that it's white and golden.

I looked for information and I found that actually the dress is blue and black but some people see it like white and golden cause  they don't distinguish the colours with thin light.

That remind me of a universal paranoia that says that maybe the colours for each person are different but we know them with the same name, for example maybe for me the blue is pink and for you the red is blue but we know them with the same name blue!,  as we can not describe colours, we cannot actually know if we see the same colours, actually it doesn't have anything to do with the dress but it's kinda similar.

Well this is the dress, I see it blue and black and you.

THE KINGS OF SUMMER

I'm too tired to write today, sometime I feel like I hate writing, but then I love it again. :)

At least I recommend this movie, it's good.

It's about three young boys that tired of rules leave their homes to live in the forest in a little house they built and to live from the nature.

FALLING IN THE MELANCOHOLY

FRIDAY 20 FEBRUARY 2015 06:20 PM (IT'S SLIGHTLY CLOUDY 23°)


"Today has been an estrange and short day, just like the others"


Today I decided not going to the school, I was fighting myself in the bed, one part of me said go to the school you can't skip the classes and the another said I don't want to see anybody today.

So that's what I did, I stayed at home but It was a very short day, I hid in my room when my mom came back home after taking care of my grandma at the hospital.

I played smash bros. brawl in my computer until she went to sleep,  my dad arrived, she woke up, we ate and they went to sleep.

"I feel nostalgic, I don't know why?, I feel like if I wasn't myself".

I found this song, a remix of a video game song, Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time Saria's Song remix Rock/Metal,

It really gets me nostalgic and that feeling I said before.

More or less this is what's on my mid when I listen to that song.

CON LUI PARTIRÀ (ANGELINA SEYMOUR VILLALOBOS)

THURSDAY 19 FEBRUARY 2015 (RAINY 20°)

We don't realize what we have until we lose it, but sometimes we cannot accept we lost something or somebody and it's like if everything were normal but the pain is always there.

This may not be a good idea but I want to express what I feel and how I feel.
My grandma fell sick last Sunday, she could not attend my father's birthday, she got worse along the week.
I'm sad because I wasn't close to my grandma, the only things I want to keep in my mind are two, that she was a GOOD women and she's going with God, she supported my father and my uncles so hard, she worked for hours, she walked kilometres to bring the food to table, to bring them education, she was an amazing Woman,  she used to worry about everybody...

I can't believe she's lying in a hospital bed breathing artificially and her hearth could stop beating at any time.

I can't believe this, it's like if she were still there, It's like if like if in any moment we'll receive a call telling us she's OK, she's walking and she's going home.
I want to talk to her, I want to watch her walk and do what she always does.
I don't want to accept that she won't come back to us.

I will always think she's in her home every time I go to  her house.
I'm in white...

There is so many  things I want to say but they would not make sense.

I don't know why my family is acting like if she were dead, watching photos and videos where she appears.

I can't get it, she is here, she is my grandma, she's Angelina Seymour V., and It doesn't matter what happen she will always be, I can't conceive this.


I'll wait to see what happens but I hope my mind to be ready for it, cause I want to believe.

IL MIO GIORNO OSCURO

Questo l'ho scritto ieri ma mi è successo Il venerdì-sabato.

Quelli giorni saranno indimenticabili, 14 febbraio 2015, un giorno "d'amore", ho sentito come tutto l'amore di la mia famiglia si è caduto nella spazzatura, tutti si sono arrabbiati  con tutti piuttosto io con tutti, mi sono chiuso nella stanza tutto il giorno, non è uno scherzo, sono uscito solo 3 volte, non ho mangiato niente, bene solo un mango, ma non ho fatto la colazione, non ho pranzato e non ho cenato,

È strano come a volte ci sentiamo come -tutto sta bene per prima volta nella mia vita è niente può andare male ma di subito succede qualcosa che cambia tutto intorno me e di subito mi trovavo odiando tutto.

A volte mi domando se sono nel modo giusto.

Ma credo che tutto sta bene allora. 

LEARNING HOW TO DRIVE

3rd APRIL 2015 09:17 PM (WINDY)

Last week I had been learning to drive, my dad was teaching me and swear that I have to press the accelerator with a silk touch it's so sensitive.

I want to learn soon, maybe he let me  borrow the car and I'll save money like this, I won't have to take the bus never again.

I was dreaming obviously that's not gonna happen.

Unless...

EXPENSIVE HAIRCUT

11 FEBRUARY 2015 03;35 PM (IT'S GETTING TROPICAL OVER HERE IN THE NOON ): 25° C)

I am the stupid  alternative guy, doing the things I  like I tend to mess up.


Well, I want to say that I'm really disappointed of myself for being procrastinating these days that's one of the reasons why I haven't written anything, that and because of my lack of technology.

Recording memories. Last Saturday my father told me to cut my hair but  I didn't wanted  go to the barber shop (It was already on my mind to cut my hair off but was thinking in cutting it by myself, I had cut my hair myself before but not as much as I was thinking to do this time).

So I tell my dad that I wanted to cut it by myself, he said "OK but I want that hair short for today".

So I went to my room and watched some hair cutting videos but there weren't videos of  men medium hair cutting with only scissor, cause I only had a scissor,  well then I decided to set to work, I got the combs and  a scissor and I started cutting my hair, well  basically it was not that bad for the first time, that day I felt like if it was a master piece but the next days I saw my hair and I just said, I screw it up.

I don't know if I'll do it again but I cannot wait it to grow and go to the barber to fix it.



At least it's not like this xD.

THE ENDING

06 FEBRUARY 2015 09:34 PM (21° C WINDY CLEAR NIGHT)

Well, everything has a final and this is not the exception..., son my vacations have finally come to the final, actually they were good but I wasn't time alone.

That's what I most enjoy of vacations, spending time alone.

But well I have to go back to University even I don't want to, at least I won't be at home but I don't like the college either.

Well, if we want to get things we want, we have to do things we don't like.

WHY I DON'T LIKE WHERE I LIVE

If somebody with the same likes as me came to my city I'm pretty sure he or she would hate it...


1. The weather can be Horribly hot.

We can reach temperatures up to 40° c in spring

2. Insecurity does not  allow you to do anything.

Practically there is a murder every day. (In my suburb, I'm not exaggerating)

3. It's polluted for being a small city.

In some part of the city the air has smog, and there are 2 petrochemical complexes and a salt-work near the city, plus the cars.

And many others but I think those are the most important, I don't hate this country I just hate what we do with it.