AND IT TOOK ME DOWN

I was planning some things for these days, but I did not expect that anything happened.

Me.

The roller coaster brought me down today, it seems to be always unexpected, I've noticed something, 

I think I hate my family, especially my father, I feel bad for this but I cannot help feeling this.

I hate everything of him, the way he talks, the way he eats, the way he walks, even when he sleeps, I don't know if this is me but I've got strong feelings about this, I want to run away, I want to be alone for a while, I cannot take anyone here.

I'm a little sad but not at all, I feel....I feel desperate.

Abhorrence, I don't want to use that word but sometimes I feel it, I get really mad at him when he forces me to do something or when he knows I'm angry and despite that he makes fun of me

My mother and sister, I don't even want to talk about them.

I'll try to post something else, I'll try.