WHEN I WAS YOUNG (XD)

This is something I found in my documents, It's a thought I wrote for a project a year ago.

I wasn't sad and I'm not sad I don't know what my inspiration was but I like it.

(Read slowly for more drama... or not)

Sadness

(A thought by my memories)

Do not put those sad songs, my tears are not from my happiness; I've fought a good war against myself, sometimes I lost and sometimes nobody wins, I couldn't have won; I've been sick all the time with no cure, I’m being damaged by the time and I feel ten years older; The time has been awful; it caused my disability, like a veteran of a cruel war, my dreams have been destroyed by my cowardice, my bravely was punched painfully and my pride was getting too small, the time goes are bad news for me.

I've been trying to find my own loneliness but my loneliness couldn't be found.

I´m starving and I’m cold, the autumn has been my only companion. There’s not a return ticket, I just have my jumper, a pair of trainers and my mind at the edge of a great battle. My words were valuables a long time ago, now the others use them just for make me fall, they've gone away; now my mouth is muted. What the said people I didn't care.

What the people have done against me, have been shameful but only for me, I dwell in myself since I discovered myself as a shelter. I haven't been this way all my life but it don’t care, now, It's a chaos, a great catastrophe as the past is getting blurry, I haven't been sobbing anymore, actually I did not deserved that, that fact is deeply overwhelming.

The people said whatever I wanted to hear, all the time, don't let up . It submerged me deeper.

But I'm not saying this from the abysm, where the people and myself saw me for the last time; I’m on the top of my biggest achievement.

A quite small part of a one story of my life.