MESSED UP!! (OMG)

I want to cry. I don't want you to think I'm depressive but I wasn't expecting some things in my life this month, my birthday was just the last Thursday and things are happening, things will happen, I don't how to handle this but I don't think I won't be able to do this well or at least I'll end this season messed up or worse, fucked up.

Things at school are getting serious, next semester is going to be a challenge and the others even more difficult. My patient is running out, my needing for time alone, cold and a change of scenery are increasing, I want to learn German, Norwegian or Russian now and my dad is going to be a Pastor, which involves less time for me, I'll have more things to do and I have problems.

Oh My!, I just ant to disappear. My family is not a good shelter in these moments.

My idea of vacations was boring routine doing the chores and to go out occasionally not thinking of this things.

My mind won't shut up tonight, I won't be able to sleep well.

Am I exaggerating?, I hope so because I feel fucked up.