FALLING IN THE MELANCOHOLY

FRIDAY 20 FEBRUARY 2015 06:20 PM (IT'S SLIGHTLY CLOUDY 23°)


"Today has been an estrange and short day, just like the others"


Today I decided not going to the school, I was fighting myself in the bed, one part of me said go to the school you can't skip the classes and the another said I don't want to see anybody today.

So that's what I did, I stayed at home but It was a very short day, I hid in my room when my mom came back home after taking care of my grandma at the hospital.

I played smash bros. brawl in my computer until she went to sleep,  my dad arrived, she woke up, we ate and they went to sleep.

"I feel nostalgic, I don't know why?, I feel like if I wasn't myself".

I found this song, a remix of a video game song, Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time Saria's Song remix Rock/Metal,

It really gets me nostalgic and that feeling I said before.

More or less this is what's on my mid when I listen to that song.

CON LUI PARTIRÀ (ANGELINA SEYMOUR VILLALOBOS)

THURSDAY 19 FEBRUARY 2015 (RAINY 20°)

We don't realize what we have until we lose it, but sometimes we cannot accept we lost something or somebody and it's like if everything were normal but the pain is always there.

This may not be a good idea but I want to express what I feel and how I feel.
My grandma fell sick last Sunday, she could not attend my father's birthday, she got worse along the week.
I'm sad because I wasn't close to my grandma, the only things I want to keep in my mind are two, that she was a GOOD women and she's going with God, she supported my father and my uncles so hard, she worked for hours, she walked kilometres to bring the food to table, to bring them education, she was an amazing Woman,  she used to worry about everybody...

I can't believe she's lying in a hospital bed breathing artificially and her hearth could stop beating at any time.

I can't believe this, it's like if she were still there, It's like if like if in any moment we'll receive a call telling us she's OK, she's walking and she's going home.
I want to talk to her, I want to watch her walk and do what she always does.
I don't want to accept that she won't come back to us.

I will always think she's in her home every time I go to  her house.
I'm in white...

There is so many  things I want to say but they would not make sense.

I don't know why my family is acting like if she were dead, watching photos and videos where she appears.

I can't get it, she is here, she is my grandma, she's Angelina Seymour V., and It doesn't matter what happen she will always be, I can't conceive this.


I'll wait to see what happens but I hope my mind to be ready for it, cause I want to believe.

IL MIO GIORNO OSCURO

Questo l'ho scritto ieri ma mi è successo Il venerdì-sabato.

Quelli giorni saranno indimenticabili, 14 febbraio 2015, un giorno "d'amore", ho sentito come tutto l'amore di la mia famiglia si è caduto nella spazzatura, tutti si sono arrabbiati  con tutti piuttosto io con tutti, mi sono chiuso nella stanza tutto il giorno, non è uno scherzo, sono uscito solo 3 volte, non ho mangiato niente, bene solo un mango, ma non ho fatto la colazione, non ho pranzato e non ho cenato,

È strano come a volte ci sentiamo come -tutto sta bene per prima volta nella mia vita è niente può andare male ma di subito succede qualcosa che cambia tutto intorno me e di subito mi trovavo odiando tutto.

A volte mi domando se sono nel modo giusto.

Ma credo che tutto sta bene allora. 

LEARNING HOW TO DRIVE

3rd APRIL 2015 09:17 PM (WINDY)

Last week I had been learning to drive, my dad was teaching me and swear that I have to press the accelerator with a silk touch it's so sensitive.

I want to learn soon, maybe he let me  borrow the car and I'll save money like this, I won't have to take the bus never again.

I was dreaming obviously that's not gonna happen.

Unless...

EXPENSIVE HAIRCUT

11 FEBRUARY 2015 03;35 PM (IT'S GETTING TROPICAL OVER HERE IN THE NOON ): 25° C)

I am the stupid  alternative guy, doing the things I  like I tend to mess up.


Well, I want to say that I'm really disappointed of myself for being procrastinating these days that's one of the reasons why I haven't written anything, that and because of my lack of technology.

Recording memories. Last Saturday my father told me to cut my hair but  I didn't wanted  go to the barber shop (It was already on my mind to cut my hair off but was thinking in cutting it by myself, I had cut my hair myself before but not as much as I was thinking to do this time).

So I tell my dad that I wanted to cut it by myself, he said "OK but I want that hair short for today".

So I went to my room and watched some hair cutting videos but there weren't videos of  men medium hair cutting with only scissor, cause I only had a scissor,  well then I decided to set to work, I got the combs and  a scissor and I started cutting my hair, well  basically it was not that bad for the first time, that day I felt like if it was a master piece but the next days I saw my hair and I just said, I screw it up.

I don't know if I'll do it again but I cannot wait it to grow and go to the barber to fix it.



At least it's not like this xD.

THE ENDING

06 FEBRUARY 2015 09:34 PM (21° C WINDY CLEAR NIGHT)

Well, everything has a final and this is not the exception..., son my vacations have finally come to the final, actually they were good but I wasn't time alone.

That's what I most enjoy of vacations, spending time alone.

But well I have to go back to University even I don't want to, at least I won't be at home but I don't like the college either.

Well, if we want to get things we want, we have to do things we don't like.

WHY I DON'T LIKE WHERE I LIVE

If somebody with the same likes as me came to my city I'm pretty sure he or she would hate it...


1. The weather can be Horribly hot.

We can reach temperatures up to 40° c in spring

2. Insecurity does not  allow you to do anything.

Practically there is a murder every day. (In my suburb, I'm not exaggerating)

3. It's polluted for being a small city.

In some part of the city the air has smog, and there are 2 petrochemical complexes and a salt-work near the city, plus the cars.

And many others but I think those are the most important, I don't hate this country I just hate what we do with it.

2.THE PROBLEM

24th January 2015 10:25 PM  ("Cold")

I really need them.

As a guy that is always  looking for being at least shallow-minded possible....

I had not realize how much I need  those devices untill I lost them,
I lost my mobile on the bus, I AM suffering because of it, practically I could write a blog everywhere and then post it, it was easier, I wrote a draft and then I could modify it or finish it,  I could easily listen to music, write important things without papper and pen, I took pretty good photos with my 8 mpx camera, I could watch videos confortably everywhere, reblog on tumblr  quickly, looked for things that i needed to know at the momment.
Now it's harder to do all that and know even more because my computer crashes and it's about to die, every time I turn it on, it automatically turns itself  off and so on, I have to do that at least ten times.

So I really need an new mobile and a new computer, my mother has both, a new pretty handsome computer and a mobile, and she actually does not often use them, she should give them to me, at least the computer, it's to much for woman who does not know how to differentiate between Google chrome and Google the searcher.

Now i have to do everything in my Wii U controller xD, :(.

1. WHAT'S THIS ABOUT

24th JANUARY OF 2015 AT 10:15 PM ("COLD" 19°c)

These weeks I've beeen forgetting something, what's this blog about, i was thinking "I just write interesting things", like thoughts, feelings and smart things.
But i forgot this blog is supposed to be about me, for good or worse.
It's to keep my memories of this journey, the journey of my life.
What I do and my feelings and thoughts when I do those things.

I won't stop, I have a lot to tell,, ideas, thougts, feelings, things...



If there is some reader here, if actually there is somebody that is able to understand what i write..


well...    welcome to my world.

RUNNIG OUT PATIENCE

Jueves 15 de Enero 1015 10:19 pm (Pretty windy, quite cold and


These days OMG, what are thinking in.
have you looked at that long way, yes I have.



Breathing...




1...2...3



1...2...3



Confidence, tolerance.....



Parents will be parents, we cannot change them, you cannot change yoru siblings, but sometimes...

....



....



breathing...

thinking...





it's impossible to act normal before every quiet fit of anger, rather internal fit of anger.....


You want to disappear them. or yourself.



I don't know if life's better we you are on yor own or with your parents but I want to leave home quickly.  I want new friends (anyway i don't have so they would be new xD.), I new house, a new atmosphere...



 -Questo è solo un pensiero-

JUST A DOG

12 JANUARY 2015

It was born to be ignored by most of the people, it was born to walk with no rhumb, after it is  enogh old their mother leaves it, but sometimes that happens before time and the only thing it can do is
wandering most of the time alone, its only objective its to survive in the cold outside.
Avoiding the dogcatchers, in this city are cruel men who sacrify them and also some bad people with no sanity.
When it's seen by people, nobody cares or look twice, anyway it's jus a dog but its sad face casually  achives to peneatrates deeply in somebody's heart.
With no ilusions it tends to aproach to the people for some food but most of the time receives kicks shoutings  rocks and water.
The most maltreated dogs hide their fears behind their aggressiveness, beaten  and injured by the people they don't have any other choice than become aggressive with the people.

Rain, cold, hot, wind and storms pass away and it's still stand, looks for a shelter in any place where the rain cannot reach, where the shades are.
But not everybody can find one and they are just doomed to suffer.
Food , a bed it does not have that, just what it can find in the garbage.

Those faces so innocent, so pure, so alone.
While we delight thinking in what we have, thinking in our problems, thinking in how to be more hollow, submerged in our sphere.

Is wanders in the streets, in the roads, it walks miles every day, it just walks and walks till they die, but who cares It is just a dog.

TEST

10 JANUARY 2015 12:24 PM (20° C CLOUDY AND WINDY)


Theese days have been long and short at the same time, cold days finally arrived to our city and it's pretty cold for a tropical city.
 I don't know why but lately I've been feeling very empty from inside, I don't know what to do or what to think about much things I used to think about.
I am very dissapointed of the local internet companies, the new modem was supposed to arrive  the wenesday, it's saturday and we still have that freakin Telmex modem.

I have to study for my exams and my computer doen't work anymore.
But at least I'm healthy!

UNIVERSITY MADNESS RETURNS

TUESDAY 06 JANUARY OF 2015 04:25 (CLOUDY AND WINDY 21°c)

Unfortunately vacations does not last for ever, so tomorrow I'll go to the school but but but but.... at least I'll just be there 4 hours, yes!!!, well another news, tomorrow some good people will come to my house and they will install a new modem belonging to a new internet company, I really hope these guys (I mean the company) to be more helpful and careful with their customers. well let's wait..

THE CROWD

This is not about something that happened, this is just about what I think about the different kinds of people I know, as I’ve said I’m a quiet guy for most of the people, although for some people I’m talkative because there’s people who I can talk with and there’s people who I can talk deeply about me and what I think.

Anyway most of the time I just watch people react to several things, I’m not a stalker or I care about them, I just find interesting to see what kind of people there are around you, so you can discover things that will allow you to know who’s reliable, who’s stupid and who has a true person inside.

There are a lot of people in the world so it’s hard to find a criterion to classify people.

But the only thing I want to say it’s that I would like some people changed the way in which they see the life, the way in which the see the world and the other people.

Most of the people just swim where most of the people go, mainly this technological world creates people that just want to be cool in social networks, the best dressed in a party, the one with 1 thousand fake and shallow friends.

I’m very disappointed of the humanity, the people around me, of myself; we are just looking to get higher, being down.

But if we take out all what we have, clothes, possessions, our ratings, appearance, money, “friends”, the only things are going to stay are going to be the good things and the bad things, and there would be people that “naked” wouldn’t be anything and some people that would be like the gold, our presumptions will disappear like the wind goes.

With no possessions, what would I have?, we would be the one that was rich, the one that was pretty, the one that knew a lot, the one that was famous and then…

We better be recognized like the gentile one, the brave one, the peaceful one, the friendly one, the patient one, the noble one.

But just God knows how we could be judged. It’s just that I observe people around me and I just wonder, what are we doing?.

Most of the things in this world is venom for our soul and spirit.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2015

Happy new year whoever read this, I haven't done or thought anything interesting so that's why I haven't written anything these days, and because of my vice with SSB xD, and my "homework" >:(.