I HATE ROLLER COASTERS

31st WEDNESDAY, SEPTEMBER 2016 7:01 A.M.

In summary these weeks have been illuminatig since I have developed my tesis work, well the title ,what I want to study and it's been a progress so I feel a little bit relief about that 'cause I felt relly stress and restless when I had no clue on what was going on with all this.

Things at home are relly ugly, there is a bit of a tension atmosphere, things are hard these days and I just don't mess with anyone so I can be in peace.

Sometimes families suck!

I have no friends at school but I think a have a pair of good ones out of it, and other two that were great friends but we're too bussy as to find a time to talk.

I need a scheedule. I need to manage my time and this is going to be awful but otherwise I am not going to be able to do the right things at the right time.

LAST SCHOOL YEAR

Yesterday was the first day of my last year at university and I can feel the pressure of the Thesis and English and Fench certification.

This semester is going to be heavy and I am really tired, this is the beginning of my future, hope to be able to bear till the end.

That short paragraph is better than nothing.

-Stay Yourself

Bye!

THE KEY FOR MOST OF THE THINGS

This last year I've been influenced by some thoughts regarding to being an "adult", but it's not like putting aside my youth or leaving some "kid" things, it's just about thinking like an adult and doing the adult things that I have to do or the things that I want to do but invlove adult thinking ways, like moving to Canada, It's something I want to do but there are lots of paperwork and legal issues and money and trips.

I've been trying to get better at those things, when it come to responsabilities and duties I want to be and adult but I can still be a boy with all my grown up and unmature ways mixed.

The point is that I learned something important in life, something you know or at least has been told to you by an adult once in your life but you don't take it serious back then.

The thing is that patience is the key to improve in almost everything, well the most important factor, I've been literally doing things and being patience, even when you don't want to be, you just relax and keep trying. Just keep yourself doing it and that's it, it happened to me at video games and in improving my drawing skills and I thing I'm using that power for other things.

BY THE WAY

By the way, maybe some of  "you" have noted that I have another name, well I decided to start againg as a better person and my name was really wore out with the things I did wrong, from now I'm going to write down under the name of -Axl Forsberg, let's say he's a better person now, I would like to actually change my name but it's merely hard, so I'll just call myself like that.

If you wonder where that name came from, let's just say that they are just preferences, (I name I like LOL).

Something funny: like 2 years ago I used to do incognito things (not bad neither pervert things) under the name of Edmundo Dantés xD. I did the troll in some places and apps.

And also I just saw this image  and it's totally what my blog is and what I am, so I think I'll used it from now onwards:

THE INEVITABLE

Let's go to the point, these whole vacations I've doing what makes me feel good but most of the things just make me feel fulfilled for a while and that came to be disappointing.

It took me a while to realize, it's funny cause I've watching some movies that curiously show that kind of wrong feelings, but I realized that there are some other stuff that really matter and I know that it always seems to be like I'm learning the same thing twice or more times.

But I realized something important new about me (which is obvious but sometimes you just don't know) I'm just a 21 old boy that doesn't feel adult enough besause of the fact that looks like a 16 YO and becuase he's short and he also doen's feel young cause he's 21 and  I write this journal and as much as I don't want to call it a journal, IT IS A JOURNAL!!, I've been expecting that someting incredible  happens to me so I can write it down here and maybe to feel smug of my own personal life but the reality is that I'm going to die waiting if don't ever do something. That's no gonna happen by itself.

Yeah! This is a kind of journal and I don't need to live something impressive or special in order to write in my blog, this is one of the things that really mekes me feel fulfilled and I should be doing it more often. 

I feel I can express myself in a better way and I hope I will. I just wanted to share the whole summary of my crappy vacations and of course that's my bad.