NEW STUFF FOR MY BLOG!

So after I posted a image of I sim I made yesterday I had the idea of doing more like that one. But with my sim, I mean the one who I made to look more like me. So I made screen shots in the Sims 4 Create-a-sim (CAS) tool of my sim doing diverse poses that express different emotions, feelings and also thoughts!

So that would give my blog a little big more personalization, since I'm still too shy as to post photos, and beginner in drawing as to draw my pictures. 

So it's like feeling me through my sims, I may be absurd or too friky but I wanted to try, it's funny, I'ts a way to transmit why I feel with a character that resembles to me. 

Here have some of what I've made. (I should copyright them)

So for example I would tell something like this:

Today we took a kind of online diagnosis test of the First Certificate in English. We were all in the computer centre and we took it together. We only did the listening. Reading and use of English.This was in order to know how we were in English.

So then at the end I heard a classmate talking about another one and how she was pretty calm in spite of having gotten a 43 or 4.. something from 100. She was like fooling around laughing with no worries. I was like, are you kidding?, you got a 43 of 100 and you're like if it was nothing. This is freaking' university, this is what your going live from in the future. But of course she's got no siblings and her parents have money. But at any point of her life she'll be fucked up. But you know I was also like I don't f*ing care.

This was true BTW.

RAIN THOUGHTS 👻

TUESDAY 11th, OCTOBER 2016 (27° C CLOUDY AND RAINY)


Today was a peculiar day, although I was home the whole day I think I did interesting things today. I tried out the Just Dance 2017 and it was quite an interesting thing, I had never done something like that before and I liked it, I felt I little embarrassed dancing alone though. A funny thing is that the only song available in the Demo is Sorry by Justin Bieber so I danced to that song like 6 times.

So I didn't go to school cause I was raining so heavily that I couldn't leave home, then one hour later I got a call from the group leader telling me that nobody was going to school, so I didn't go.

I spend the whole day with my dog inside thing which is weird here in Mexico, people usually keep their dogs and cats outside.

I also found myself realising about something, ever since I was a kid I've kinda innocent, well more innocent then the regular people of my age.

I realised that since I was a kid my world, my universe was different from most worlds of other kids, I mean there should be other kids like me but I didn't know any. I was made of imagination, creation, I saw and see far beyond of simple things. I was too busy thinking in good things as to know what some other kids knew.

In elementary school there were kids talking about sex an masturbation, and kids who actually masturbated and I didn't know what masturbation was till second grade of middle school!! (there are 3 year of MS here in Mexico).
I didn't know what porn was until some nasty kids introduced me to it, of course after making fun of me like for a year. I was bullied for being innocent, they called me gay just because I didn't watch neither knew about porn. Just because I didn't see women in the morbid way they did.

In high school I was so shocked when I found out that a classmate was pregnant, while most of the others students were like it's OK, I saw it coming or whatever.

I like how my mind works but I don't know if this is positive or negative, this can be my own world. I don't have to worry about the evilness of the world of is it impossible? am I being corrupted?

I wish I was able to do something with this, this kind of aspect of my personality.

I'm sure of one thing.... I'm want to but Just Dance 2017 when it's released!


I also made this sim in the sims 4.

I'M PARALYSED

Wednesday 06th, October 2016 (31° C SUNNY IN AUTUMN D:)


Well the last two weeks were really stressing. I couldn't help myself doing only fun things when not doing homework or projects. And I love writing but sometimes is not fun to write. That's why I wasn't writing.

I also felt paralysed, I didn't want to do anything. I was questioning about everything, how things may not be worth. I almost felt like university and studies weren't worth. I wanted to do things that made me immediately happy.

I had that thought during almost the two weeks. "Why not to do what I want?", I was like I'm out of here suckers! fudge the thesis! fudge 1 the useless subjects! fudge the unprofessional teachers!, I was done with everything, the fact that I'm doubly sick made things in my head worse.

That's it, I feel better but more weeks like those are coming. Some of the seem to be worse. i'll try to do my best but I can't handle the stress anymore.

La vie était plus logique hier

La vie était plus logique hier

La vie avait plus de sens que aujourd’hui quand les raisons pour rire étaient plus simples et que je pouvais rire avec tous. 

Quand mes choix étaient moins importants et ne faisaient pas du mal à aucun. Quand j’avais plus d’une opportunité pour faire des choses. Dans ces moments quand l’unique chose importante était le présent. Quand je pouvais pleurer autant que une fille. 

Quand  ma plus grande peur était l’obscurité et dormir était plus facile. Quand le monde semblait moins mauvais et je pouvais être aussi grand que mon imagination et mes rêves. Quand mon esprit était moins occupé avec des pensées tristes et de colère. Et quand le stress n’était pas plus qu’un mot inconnu. Pour tout ça, j’aime qui je fus mais cela a déjà passé.

Excusez-moi pour les erreurs. Je suis encore en train d'apprendre.