A 30° C AUTUMN

We're almost in winter and after having a couple of rainy weeks a month ago, it never rained again.

It's been hot and this is not something that makes my days easier.

I want cold, I don't care if I'm really cold, I want cold!

For anyone who hates cold, you don't knot what you have, having a really hot weather is awful, you get sick it.

In this time of the year I expect rain, very windy days and coldness!!

If you have a pretty cold weather and you hate it. Trust me when I say this, enjoy it!

FRENCH TEACHER'S A BUMMER

TUESDAY 06th, DECEMBER 2016

Imagine that you did a kind of team presentation today, maybe you didn't practise at all but you understood the topic you knew all about it, you did your own slides so you knew what's going on.

So you passed and explain, so before, during and after the explanation you felt confident, It might not have been the best presentation ever but you felt like you did it good.

There were others who did it bad or nor so good, but you felt you did it good, you talked good. But when the teacher announces everybody's marks you got a 6 out of 10 (C-). 

That's a bummer, what did you do?, But  you did it better than other people that got B+'s . I know the thing you had to present wasn't exactly the same thing you actually presented and that rested you points, But the presentation was good,

Then your teacher explains that there are some people that have good pronunciation but they made some serious mistakes in conjugation. But you're really sure you didn't, I mean there are other times you recognise you did it terribly but this wasn't one of those times.

But you don't complain neither demand the teacher a personal explanation, you just take it to yourself. You only want to go home anyway, you're already tired mentally and physically.

Also your world relate to that subject is falling apart, you question yourself, the subject, the teacher, you hate the subject.

So that happened to me with a presentation of the French subjects, it was about a dessert. I mean I can be sad, I can hate French for a while, I can even feel free to do things poorly and effortless for some day but nothing is going to stop me learning French, even thought French is not a language I actually love and I'm 100% interested in.

I KNOW!!!

MONDAY 5th, DECEMBER 2016 21:39 (TODAY BEING ALMOST IN WINTER WE'RE 30°C😩)

I know I failed two days in a row but in my defence i'm on finals, so every single teacher is assigning homework and more homework.

I also want my time to be returned to me but at least the internship nightmare is over. What a relief.
I'm going to recover those two days. I'll do it. Also I just noticed my last post was seen a considerable amount of times.

So I think I'll do things like that now, and well I still have my old ideas. P.S. This winter vacation are going to be great!!

THINGS THAT MOST LINGUAPHILES MAY DO

1. COLLECT LANGUAGE DICTIONARIES AND BOOKS

I am pretty sure that this is true for almost every linguaphile. We enjoy that sensation of having a  dictionary and books of every language you're learning or you want to learn. Obviously dictionaries may be necessary for most of the people that learn a language but there is something else in having language dictionaries, something rather than just having them as aids.

2. SAVE EVERY SINGLE BROCHURE, MAP, TICKET OR GUIDE BOOK IN ANOTHER LANGUAGE

So whenever you go to a touristic place in another country or even in your own country and they have any sort of literature in another language. If  you're linguaphile you've got to have it and save it, Just because, maybe you'll read it later or you'll just store it. If the printed matter is in a language you haven't learn but you'd like to learn it someday in the future, you'll keep it so you'll be able to understand it when you learn the language.

3. DREAM IN LANGUAGES

Whether if you speak Spanish, English, French or any language  as your mother tongue  and you have studied a foreign language for a long time. It's really sure you have dreamt in another language. And if you are a lucid dreamer you may realise that you're speaking properly even in your dreams. That's something that probably makes you feel good.

4. TALKING TO YOURSELF IN YOUR LANGUAGES

If your alone or at least you're sure nobody can hear you and you're bored or doing nothing for sure you have at least once talked to yourself. You may have made a monologue, thinking out loud or maybe narrating what you're doing. And if you speak fluently while being alone that is probably the best sensation in that moment.

5. TRANSLATING SONGS

At this point I'm pretty sure that most of linguaphiles have done this or at least the young ones. So we all like music but what if you find yourselves translating songs into other languages and singing them, that's pretty funny and clever. But the best thing is when you get the perfect translation and it matches the song tune.

6. BOOKMAKING, SEARCHING, READING AND WATCHING MEDIA IN OTHER LANGUAGES.

Let's admit it, regardless of how useful  it is for learning to be exposed to media in other languages, having things you consider very useful or maybe not feels good, it feels good o have pages that are about things you like and in other languages. You bookmark everything, you download everything, it's pretty normal.

7. USING YOUR LANGUAGES WHEN YOU DON'T NEED TO

So no matter if none will understand you have to say it or write it  in another language, just because you want to practice or just because. You have to leave a note for someone, you write it in French. You want to look for information on internet, you search in Italian. You want to write a blog and you speak Spanish, you do it in English. You want to tweet something unique, you do it in Russian. You want to change your what's app state, you do it in Japanese. Sometimes people who don't speak other languages do it too, like when getting a tattoo.

8. SHOW OFF

As simple as this, we have all at least once or a little bit showed off our languages. Or well we just simply show that we speak another language.

All this is normal and it's good 'cause it's part of you.

New Blogger Update Review Yay!

Thursday 1st, December 2016.

P.D. This is not counting as a double entry for the 1 month blogger challenge!😀 (I've just invented the name for the challenge LOL)


So it's being such a long time since I last wrote in Blogger, so naturally I just noticed they updated the page today. And... I'm really happy, Blogger finally had an appearance update😄. Well they also updated some other functions and characteristics. But well it's mainly its new aspect that stands out the most for me.

They change the fonts and the design in general, It looks smooth and little bit more up to date. You can access to your blogs at the upper right corner

The blogs you follow are now in the right side of the page.

They add a new tool in which you can find all kind of symbols and emoji's!!!!, you can also see that now nest to the blog title you have a part that indicates how are you posting as.

It has drop down menu in which you can now search symbols, and you can add now emoji's!!, it is going to be way more simple to find emoji's for your blog.

That's it, I may have missed some things but that is everything I could point out right now. I think Blogger really needed this update, now its interface looks more desirable and not so 2000's!

CHALLENGE!!!

Thursday First December 2016, 04:04 P.M. (27° C !!! (in autumn!!) je mors!💀)


First of all, I want to make a big apologise to myself and to my blog, because I have being suppressing my writer side.

I want to promise something, as psychologists say that in order to get used to doing something you have to do it at least during like 60 days.

But I think is enough for me like for a month (if is possible for me to do it, they will be 2 months (December and January))

So I'm challenging myself to write!!!!!😨 To write an entry in my blog in every single December day!!

And then if I succeed I'l do it in January, that way it will become a habit I'll do naturally, even thought I have lots of things to do.

But I warn who ever reads my blog, I will probably write about anything, from the dumbest thing to the most amazing things. That will depend on how I feel that day. There will be everything, three lines entries, longs entries, image entries, philosophical entries, diary like entries, entries  in English, Spanish, Italian and French. And much more, I think I'll be funny.


So...... Challenge accepted!!! 😛


- Axl Forsberg

I'M ALIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You guys or to nobody, well to myself, I'm not dead I've just been busy, tired and lazy.


I've been really busy with projects, homework an more stuff. I should be doing like 5 homework and a project right now but my lovely blog deserves to be written. So I've been writing for academic purposes and for languages. I was working on my thesis'chapter 2, the most tiring and large one.

I don't know what was the last thing that I said but I did it, I did what I said I would do. I bought the actual Just Dance 2017 and Oh My God it cost me the equivalent of 64 dollars, that is a lot here. But anyway, I've playing and like it it really relaxes me and I'm actually amused every time I play. I want to think it was worth.

In other news, I tried to record myself to upload it here, since it's a easier way to keep my blog updated I wanted to do it. I recorded an audio but the Blogger app for mobile phone does not supports video nor audio uploads. That's not a surprise but well, I have to use my laptop anyway. But I think I feel confident enough as to do it often. Well that or I'm just not ashamed anymore of what people could say of my weird English.

I'm also disappointing because of Trump's victory, I was really hoping Hilary to be the winner. That's bad news for me, since a lot of people is moving to Canada, it may get overpopulated or there may be less jobs offers. Anyway I think is going to be harder to move to Canada and to find a job.


With all that been said, I hope I could write soon. BTW I feel ready to translate my important blogs into French and Italian.

NEW STUFF FOR MY BLOG!

So after I posted a image of I sim I made yesterday I had the idea of doing more like that one. But with my sim, I mean the one who I made to look more like me. So I made screen shots in the Sims 4 Create-a-sim (CAS) tool of my sim doing diverse poses that express different emotions, feelings and also thoughts!

So that would give my blog a little big more personalization, since I'm still too shy as to post photos, and beginner in drawing as to draw my pictures. 

So it's like feeling me through my sims, I may be absurd or too friky but I wanted to try, it's funny, I'ts a way to transmit why I feel with a character that resembles to me. 

Here have some of what I've made. (I should copyright them)

So for example I would tell something like this:

Today we took a kind of online diagnosis test of the First Certificate in English. We were all in the computer centre and we took it together. We only did the listening. Reading and use of English.This was in order to know how we were in English.

So then at the end I heard a classmate talking about another one and how she was pretty calm in spite of having gotten a 43 or 4.. something from 100. She was like fooling around laughing with no worries. I was like, are you kidding?, you got a 43 of 100 and you're like if it was nothing. This is freaking' university, this is what your going live from in the future. But of course she's got no siblings and her parents have money. But at any point of her life she'll be fucked up. But you know I was also like I don't f*ing care.

This was true BTW.

RAIN THOUGHTS 👻

TUESDAY 11th, OCTOBER 2016 (27° C CLOUDY AND RAINY)


Today was a peculiar day, although I was home the whole day I think I did interesting things today. I tried out the Just Dance 2017 and it was quite an interesting thing, I had never done something like that before and I liked it, I felt I little embarrassed dancing alone though. A funny thing is that the only song available in the Demo is Sorry by Justin Bieber so I danced to that song like 6 times.

So I didn't go to school cause I was raining so heavily that I couldn't leave home, then one hour later I got a call from the group leader telling me that nobody was going to school, so I didn't go.

I spend the whole day with my dog inside thing which is weird here in Mexico, people usually keep their dogs and cats outside.

I also found myself realising about something, ever since I was a kid I've kinda innocent, well more innocent then the regular people of my age.

I realised that since I was a kid my world, my universe was different from most worlds of other kids, I mean there should be other kids like me but I didn't know any. I was made of imagination, creation, I saw and see far beyond of simple things. I was too busy thinking in good things as to know what some other kids knew.

In elementary school there were kids talking about sex an masturbation, and kids who actually masturbated and I didn't know what masturbation was till second grade of middle school!! (there are 3 year of MS here in Mexico).
I didn't know what porn was until some nasty kids introduced me to it, of course after making fun of me like for a year. I was bullied for being innocent, they called me gay just because I didn't watch neither knew about porn. Just because I didn't see women in the morbid way they did.

In high school I was so shocked when I found out that a classmate was pregnant, while most of the others students were like it's OK, I saw it coming or whatever.

I like how my mind works but I don't know if this is positive or negative, this can be my own world. I don't have to worry about the evilness of the world of is it impossible? am I being corrupted?

I wish I was able to do something with this, this kind of aspect of my personality.

I'm sure of one thing.... I'm want to but Just Dance 2017 when it's released!


I also made this sim in the sims 4.

I'M PARALYSED

Wednesday 06th, October 2016 (31° C SUNNY IN AUTUMN D:)


Well the last two weeks were really stressing. I couldn't help myself doing only fun things when not doing homework or projects. And I love writing but sometimes is not fun to write. That's why I wasn't writing.

I also felt paralysed, I didn't want to do anything. I was questioning about everything, how things may not be worth. I almost felt like university and studies weren't worth. I wanted to do things that made me immediately happy.

I had that thought during almost the two weeks. "Why not to do what I want?", I was like I'm out of here suckers! fudge the thesis! fudge 1 the useless subjects! fudge the unprofessional teachers!, I was done with everything, the fact that I'm doubly sick made things in my head worse.

That's it, I feel better but more weeks like those are coming. Some of the seem to be worse. i'll try to do my best but I can't handle the stress anymore.

La vie était plus logique hier

La vie était plus logique hier

La vie avait plus de sens que aujourd’hui quand les raisons pour rire étaient plus simples et que je pouvais rire avec tous. 

Quand mes choix étaient moins importants et ne faisaient pas du mal à aucun. Quand j’avais plus d’une opportunité pour faire des choses. Dans ces moments quand l’unique chose importante était le présent. Quand je pouvais pleurer autant que une fille. 

Quand  ma plus grande peur était l’obscurité et dormir était plus facile. Quand le monde semblait moins mauvais et je pouvais être aussi grand que mon imagination et mes rêves. Quand mon esprit était moins occupé avec des pensées tristes et de colère. Et quand le stress n’était pas plus qu’un mot inconnu. Pour tout ça, j’aime qui je fus mais cela a déjà passé.

Excusez-moi pour les erreurs. Je suis encore en train d'apprendre.

HEY YOU! RELAX AND WATCH THIS

Behold!

BECOMING LAZY!... MEEE??!! NO WAY!

 The days I realised something that is not very important but it's necessary: my sentences are too long.
 

As something curious there's 4 different people that have told me so and in different languages. 

First my Translation teacher told me so like 2 years ago, I was translating long pices of text into ne sentence, then my English teacher in my writings.

 2 weeks ago my APA techer (yes, the one who guides us into the amazing world of APA quotation I don't know what else) she told me my sentences were occuping alsmost a whole paragraph... which is  wrong. And today my  French Skype teacher told me the same in my wirting task and yep maybe I should start using the point. I'm terible at punctuation BTW, I must be butchering the language or at leat the punctuation in English.

The point in this blog is that I think I'm becoming lazier, well that or I'm still having a hard time getting used to this schedule, cause I used to do all projects in advanced but now all I want to do is look at someone's eyes and say... sorry I had to write that song and sing it mentally. Being serious I all want to do when I get home is doing everything but homeowork, self study or projects.

Someone would have to help me like this..

BUTTERFLY EFFECT IT'S ON ME BUT NOT AT ALL

 Wednesday 14th, September 2016 (30° still hot


I found out that something I've been fascinated with has shown up on my life

So I've taked about the butterfly effect in a previous blog but back then I didn't think of it as something that also happens to me. Well it is to say that it happens to everyone but I gave it some thought and some of the things that I've chose to do had an impact in my life, I think my path is getting more clear. 

When it comes to my mind, I think the decisions I´ve made had a repercution on my mind, I think things around me are really shaping me into the final me you know. I think I have finally some of my thoughts, ideas and ideals are like defining.

In my sourroundings everything looks messed up, it's like upside down, things I do wrong seem to have good repercutions and vice versa, and sometimes it's normal, that's what I don't understand.

Time's is shorter and some people seem to be taking their time to do everything and some other seem to hurry  and go with this short time. I personally would like to stop and breathe but that's anotehr topic that i'll cover this week and another more that write about tomorrow.

 Tomorrow's Mexico's independence day  and I want to share some thoughts with my blog and of course  woth you my ghost readers.

So

-Stay yourself! bye! 

A BEAUTIFUL ANGUISH? (MUST READ)

(THIS IS A TRANSLATION FROM MY ORIGINAL POST ON NOVEMBER 9th 2014 at 9:43 A.M.)

Let's say that this is some kind of feelings, sensations and thoughts and memories mixed up in something that has no name.

"I don't know how to call this but I'd like to find someone who feels/thinks the same. Today (Sunday) I stop feeling sleepy at 7:20 P.M, I was just lying in my bed when a song came into my mind (this usually happens with a song/melody/tune in my mind) it was Young from Air Review at once it also triggered a sensation of yearning, melancholy, extreme homesickness, longing, situations, things I lived, dreams, wishes/desires, dreams, things I've seen and it also makes me yearn new things, things to see, to know, to hear, to feel and think. 

It kinda intensified with the fact that it was raining and a little bit cold and dark.

This "think" brings me "back", images of mental places that I've never been to but someway they're on my mind and it's like if I've had been there they look so real, so livid, they're really beautiful and diverse landscapes.  Some times I think I lived them on my past lives since they look so livid and real but I don't believe in past lives. Some of them give stronger sensations than others, they come up with certain feelings but there is a common feel of yearning between them, a longing to be there and see them with my own eyes and never leave.

Dreams also come to mind, but not any dream,  it is to say beautiful ones that I deeply remember.

I can barely describe one in which I am surrounded by 5'0" ft tall pine-trees and they are ordered in rows all over a ground covered in fog and the sky is also misty. And I'm just walking among them, and ruining, feeling the wet environment, and it's like if I could smell the pine trees and the humidity the mist leaves. I don't think anything neither I hear  much. Some would think it's nothing but each one is like a deep portrait, I have no idea if this portrays something else but for me they are part of a something that may not exist.

This "thing" mix of sensations and experiences don't leave me alone, something they last days and today's was strong, If I get distracted I don't think about them but they're there, I can assure it's not about drugs I have never done drugs, this is something mental, nothing happens in the real world.

It gets me sad, inspired, angry, intrigued, anxious, this is annoying but beautiful, too beautiful, I wish I could make people feel this, like me, it's like if I wanted to burst and divide myself into parts and go to those places, and watch'em  all the way and even the ones that don't  exist.

Most of the tine this is triggered into my mind by an image, a smell (but a strong and significant one), a situation or lonely rainy day, the last one is way I love the most and it gives me that strong sensation, sometimes is like a chain reaction and goes on.

Those are like my ghosts, that bring me peace, everything in my head is stranger and much more complex that I can describe in words, some of them are broken like they're  vanishing in oblivion. Gloomy but awesomely beautiful.

This is really cool and would never like to stop having this, they are so many pictures of memories and unreal places, I've been there alone I've been trying to find someone who feels this but I've got no luck.

This was translated from my original post and since then I haven't had a strong experience like this, everything it's been dry.